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Treading

30 Oct

A few years ago… actually, not so few. Let me start again.

More than a decade ago, I received the only “incomplete” in my college transcript. It was for swimming, which was a required course for a Fisheries major like I was. Why was I taking Fisheries? That’s another story.

The instructor deemed me un-ready to face the deep blue sea probably because I learned breaststroke by asking a friend to show me how the hands and legs are supposed to work – out of the water, even though we lived about 10 minutes away from the beach.

So, on the day of the practical exam, I blundered my way through several laps, spreading my arms wide and closing them in a semblance of a breaststroke. As for treading, I tried to learn. I really did. But 15 minutes of treading was a little too much. I’m just not a water person.

A month and a half into the MBA, I can’t say that I’m not an MBA person but I can certainly say that I just don’t do “confident.” No matter that I have practically been training for an MBA for the past 2 years – D. seldom accepting anything less than a structured and rational thought from me. And there’s that starting (and trying to start) a business in 2 countries – one could say I’m ready for this.

And yet, I feel like I’m treading just above the waterline. As hard as I study, I still feel like I’m behind. I feel like I should be absorbing more and also doing more. I broke down a couple of days before my Econ midterms because I was so worried that I don’t understand anything. I was in the median score so I might have been a little too dramatic.

So now, I feel sort of guilty that I’m relieved because:

  • my accounting professor had to cancel classes last week because of a knee problem; and
  • my classes tomorrow, i.e. my managerial economics homework, is postponed because of Hurricane Sandy.

Because, really these two events are allowing me to catch up. And hey, I even get to write a blog post.

I should probably call my mom, too. And sleep. And read more on economics, and accounting, and update my resume… the list goes on and on. So, yeah, I’m relieved. On one hand, my professor seems to be recovering fine but fingers crossed on the hurricane leaving us all relatively unscathed.

Crying over a spilled spreadsheet

8 Apr

I cried today. Over an Excel spreadsheet. When I say cry, I don’t mean a delicate sniffle and a tear or two. I mean puffy eyes, red nose and a decidedly un-delicate, if silent sob.

Perhaps I should try to explain but where to start really? A bullet list will probably explain it best:

  1. I sometimes feel incompetent doing accounting
  2. Maybe because I always felt like I’m not good in Math
  3. D. and I have always clashed over accounting (personal or company finances)
  4. The finer points of Excel were not really clear to me until about a year ago when I saw D. perform pivot tables and countless functions over hundreds of cells (if you don’t know what I’m talking about, sorry, but I’m not the best person to explain)

I can do data entries and expense tracking but equity value, share value and pivot tables (see bullet #4), it’s a little beyond me sometimes. Am I stupid or did I miss the bus on this one? Should I blame my dearth of math skills (see bullet #2) or my third-world country education? If it’s the latter, that would be a big cause for concern considering I went to one of the supposed best schools in the Philippines. Then, we’re really screwed.

As for bullet #3, that has changed somewhat over the past few months. D. has been very good in allowing for my errors or my bouts of madness (reasonable they may seem to me) when it comes to inputting data. It was a painful journey but I think we understand each other. It doesn’t stop the feelings of deja vu though, i.e. a knot in my stomach the size of a basketball when he questions me about accounting.

Or I could be omitting a bullet point here. I could be omitting the fact that I just feel so thinly spread, I just can’t catch up with what I have to do:

1. Learn Ruby and program some
2. Learn HTML/CSS and contribute to the website
3. Start speaking French before everybody realizes how slow I am
4. Accounting, always
5. Taxes
6. Re-work the company business plan
7. Joint venture agreement
8. Be a good wife
9. Play sports and stay fit
10. Write

10 seems like a good number so I’ll refrain from adding: cooking like a maniac, learn about Git, SSH and Zsh, write some more, etc. etc.

So, yeah, I cried. Did I at least succeed in justifying why I cried?